I need help coming up with an abstract tattoo idea/design…

I need help coming up with an abstract tattoo idea/design something that only I would know what it meant and other people would think something completely different unless I told them. Basically what I want is something that is going to represent me and my struggles and painwhile also not giving away my life story to anyone who looks at it, I want it to be creative and unique and a reminder to be unapologetically me and a reminder that there is always the light once u get through the darkness and to always find the good in the bad